Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Twitter Noob

Well, just a light post..

I gave twitter a try before and never hooked on.. Today I gave it a try again and I seem to be getting it a little.. Even got a reply from one of my friends.. Yay!

Yes people.. I'm a twitter noob.. Took me 2 years to figure something out and show progress.. *sigh*

HAHAHA...

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to entertaining moments in life.. Cheers!

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

A lil' absence makes the heart go yonder...

Right.. In regards to the title.. Nothing of relation actually..

Just wanted to use it.. :D heeee!~

Well, just dropping a note, cause I noticed that in April I really got the ball rolling on blog posts and I suddenly disappeared for May.. for a very simple reason.. I have 2 big exams to prepare for and at this point in time, one is over and one is coming up this weekend.. *shudder*.. In between these 2 exams, I have school exams to prepare for and also TONS of paper to mark..

Let me boil it down for you.. I teach Biology right? 2 form 5 classes, 2 form 4 classes... Which makes it (Form 5 x 3 papers) + (Form 4 x 2 papers) = 6 + 4 = 10 classes worth of papers to mark... Lets call them 10 stacks...

On top of that, I'm also teaching Bible Knowledge Form 4 & 5.. = 2 stacks..

Therefore 10 stacks + 2 stacks = 12 stacks... So all this marking on top of my studying has taken a toll on my  blogging frequency :D.. But fret not readers.. I'll be back with a vengence.. when I can actually find the time... Hahaha.. =)

Well the good news is.. I've completed 4 stacks.. and 4 are halfway done.. but 4 left untouched.. Yipee Yay!! *clap clap clap*

Alrights.. better get back to marking!! Cheerios!

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to all you teachers in the same boat.. Let us carry this burden together... Cheers!!

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

How Great Thou Art...

Saw this from Yahoo! News...



Heavenly Father,


         How Great Thou Art, How Great Thou Art...


Amen.

There. nuff' said.

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to everyone. How Great indeed is the Lord Almighty..

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Good Friday: The bleeding hands and feet...

Passage Taken from Matthew 27:


Jesus Before Pilate


 11 Meanwhile Jesus stood before the governor, and the governor asked him, “Are you the king of the Jews?”
   “You have said so,” Jesus replied.
 12 When he was accused by the chief priests and the elders, he gave no answer. 13 Then Pilate asked him, “Don’t you hear the testimony they are bringing against you?” 14 But Jesus made no reply, not even to a single charge—to the great amazement of the governor.
 15 Now it was the governor’s custom at the festival to release a prisoner chosen by the crowd. 16At that time they had a well-known prisoner whose name was Jesus[b] Barabbas. 17 So when the crowd had gathered, Pilate asked them, “Which one do you want me to release to you: Jesus Barabbas, or Jesus who is called the Messiah?” 18 For he knew it was out of self-interest that they had handed Jesus over to him.
 19 While Pilate was sitting on the judge’s seat, his wife sent him this message: “Don’t have anything to do with that innocent man, for I have suffered a great deal today in a dream because of him.”
 20 But the chief priests and the elders persuaded the crowd to ask for Barabbas and to have Jesus executed.
 21 “Which of the two do you want me to release to you?” asked the governor.
   “Barabbas,” they answered.
 22 “What shall I do, then, with Jesus who is called the Messiah?” Pilate asked.
   They all answered, “Crucify him!”
 23 “Why? What crime has he committed?” asked Pilate.
   But they shouted all the louder, “Crucify him!”
 24 When Pilate saw that he was getting nowhere, but that instead an uproar was starting, he took water and washed his hands in front of the crowd. “I am innocent of this man’s blood,” he said. “It is your responsibility!”
 25 All the people answered, “His blood is on us and on our children!”
 26 Then he released Barabbas to them. But he had Jesus flogged, and handed him over to be crucified.
The Soldiers Mock Jesus
 27 Then the governor’s soldiers took Jesus into the Praetorium and gathered the whole company of soldiers around him. 28They stripped him and put a scarlet robe on him, 29 and then twisted together a crown of thorns and set it on his head. They put a staff in his right hand. Then they knelt in front of him and mocked him. “Hail, king of the Jews!” they said. 30 They spit on him, and took the staff and struck him on the head again and again. 31 After they had mocked him, they took off the robe and put his own clothes on him. Then they led him away to crucify him.
The Crucifixion of Jesus
 32 As they were going out, they met a man from Cyrene, named Simon, and they forced him to carry the cross. 33 They came to a place called Golgotha (which means “the place of the skull”). 34 There they offered Jesus wine to drink, mixed with gall; but after tasting it, he refused to drink it. 35 When they had crucified him, they divided up his clothes by casting lots. 36 And sitting down, they kept watch over him there. 37 Above his head they placed the written charge against him: THIS IS JESUS, THE KING OF THE JEWS.
 38 Two rebels were crucified with him, one on his right and one on his left. 39 Those who passed by hurled insults at him, shaking their heads 40 and saying, “You who are going to destroy the temple and build it in three days, save yourself! Come down from the cross, if you are the Son of God!” 41 In the same way the chief priests, the teachers of the law and the elders mocked him. 42 “He saved others,” they said, “but he can’t save himself! He’s the king of Israel! Let him come down now from the cross, and we will believe in him. 43 He trusts in God. Let God rescue him now if he wants him, for he said, ‘I am the Son of God.’” 44 In the same way the rebels who were crucified with him also heaped insults on him.
The Death of Jesus
 45 From noon until three in the afternoon darkness came over all the land. 46 About three in the afternoon Jesus cried out in a loud voice, “Eli, Eli,[c] lema sabachthani?” (which means “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”).[d]
 47 When some of those standing there heard this, they said, “He’s calling Elijah.”
 48 Immediately one of them ran and got a sponge. He filled it with wine vinegar, put it on a staff, and offered it to Jesus to drink. 49 The rest said, “Now leave him alone. Let’s see if Elijah comes to save him.”
 50 And when Jesus had cried out again in a loud voice, he gave up his spirit.
 51 At that moment the curtain of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom. The earth shook, the rocks split 52 and the tombs broke open. The bodies of many holy people who had died were raised to life. 53 They came out of the tombs after Jesus’ resurrection and[e] went into the holy city and appeared to many people.
 54 When the centurion and those with him who were guarding Jesus saw the earthquake and all that had happened, they were terrified, and exclaimed, “Surely he was the Son of God!”
 55 Many women were there, watching from a distance. They had followed Jesus from Galilee to care for his needs. 56 Among them were Mary Magdalene, Mary the mother of James and Joseph,[f] and the mother of Zebedee’s sons.


THANK YOU, JESUS for your love for me.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

When I Fall in Love...

I was having a swim this evening (a very much needed swim.. hehe).. Anyway, as I was swimming, the waterpark was blasting songs with their new sound system. One of the songs played was an instrumental version of Nat King Cole's ~ "When I Fall in Love".

Hearing that put me in such a sentimental mood (jiwang lah tu..) and to top it off, one of my dearest friend is tying the knot in 3 days time.. !!!!!! (So exuberantly excited!!)

So just for kicks, here's the video from Youtube that I'm currently listening to over and over again.



That's it for now,

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to all the brides-to-be.. Cheers!!

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Sarawak State Elections 2011

Its a historical time. One of the hottest election ever. Highest ever registered number of new voters. I've done my part. Cast my "X".

How bout' you?

Its so interesting to see many of the younger generation really concerned of their state. So much so that even those who are still under-age are also having their say in this. Just take a look around facebook. Everyone has something to say. But ONE comment caught my eye. It was of a 17 year old girl that posted this song and prayed the best for her city..

Here it is readers: -

God of this City   (by Chris Tomlin)

You're the God of this city
You're the King of these people
You're the Lord of this nation
You are

You're the Light in this darkness
You're the Hope to the hopeless
You're the Peace to the restless
You are

There is no one like our God
There is no one like our God

Chorus:
For greater things have yet to come
Greater things are still to be done
In this City
Greater things have yet to come
Greater things are still to be done
Here

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Lord, let your will be done, on Earth as it is in Heaven...


Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to all those voting for the first time like me!! Cheers!!

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Courtship?

How do I love Thee

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee too the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love with a passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death

~ Elizabeth Barrett Browning ~

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A student of mine yesterday randomly asked me a question.

"Teacher, are you ready to court?"

Wow.. straight out. No filtration. No easing of words into the topic. Dead straight to the point. How was I going to answer this? Am I of age to court?

To answer honestly.. If you go by "natural order of the earth" (well I've always wanted to use this phrase..hehe) at my age right now, I should be having my first child or at least getting married. But here I am, OF AGE, but never been in a relationship. Am I ready to court?

I still stand true to my belief that I will not get into a relationship that does not have marriage as a goal. And the longer this prolongs, the more I do question myself, "Am I born to lead a life of celibacy?" I mean, celibacy isn't THAT bad. There are many beautiful, strong, courages women of God that has lived a single life and done many things for God's Glory.. And sometimes I do aspire to have that kind of impact on the world. But... there is another side of me that just wants to nurture and build lives and impact them in their individual lives. In case that didn't make sense, I'll get straight to the point. I want to be a wife and mother. I also want companionship. To build a relationship of love in this small unit of life called a FAMILY.

With all that being said, should I start getting desperate and throw myself at any guy that comes my way?! Should I start flirting with random guys whom I think fits my physical requirements?! Should I start chatting up  (or email or facebook) long lost guy friends whom I know are still single so that I can widen my pool of choice (come on la.. I chat with them doesn't mean they want to chat with me mah..who am I kidding)?! Should I?

Obviously my answer would be NO. I do believe there is the right someone for me out there. And he's looking for me. And I do believe that God will bring him to me when the time is right. But until that time comes, I have to prepare myself to be better and I believe God is shaping me to be that person. What if that person doesn't exist? Then I pray that God will give me the grace to accept that..

Now that all is mentioned, the very same question comes to mind again:

"Am I ready to court?"

"Why, its elementary my dear Watson, elementary"...

YES.

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to those who are having the same dilemma as I am. Cheers!

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Gentle Reminder.....

Today is church day!! Yay!!

The sermon was wonderfully shared and focused on Nehemiah Chapter 6 where my church pastor preached about guarding our personal walls. One of the phrases mentioned really struck me which goes:

We must NEVER take our eyes off God and think that we can do it on our own. Then our walls will begin to crack (referring to the walls of Jerusalem that were taken over by the Babylonians)
Pastor went on to remind us that we should always REMEMBER GOD for he has been our help which immediately reminded me of my previous post where I mentioned that if we remember God is bigger than our problem, we are comforted.

Lord Jesus,
          Forgive me for my lack of faith in you lately. Thank you for your faithfulness in carrying me through each day. Lord I want to continue to learn to put my faith in you, to trust you. Teach me, mold me. Make me more like you.
Amen.

The youth sang a song that speaks of the same message too.. I guess I really need to be reminded of the awesomeness of God.. Here its is..

THROUGH IT ALL

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hands
And lead me in Your righteousness

And I look to You
And I wait on You

Chorus:
I sing to You, Lord
A hymn of love
For your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all

Bridge:
Hallelujah (4x)

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to those of you who needs a little EXTRA reminder like me.. God Bless!!!

Saturday, April 09, 2011

A new leaf?

Regarding the title.. Why do we always say "turn over a new leaf"?? I mean when you turn over a leaf.. it just DOESN'T become new.. hmmm..

Right. To post proper...

In light of my post before this, I need to address a few matters..

I know my post was very impulsive and reactive BUT, I do not regret it for I am but only human and no one was harmed (except probably for my ego..). Anyway, I had Bible Study for homegroup and we covered Nehemiah Chapter 4. From that chapter, the verse that popped up to me was

After I look things over, I stood up and said to the nobles, the officials and the rest of the people, "Don't be afraid of them. Remember the Lord, who is great and awesome, and fight for your brothers, your sons and your daughters, your wives and your homes." (Neh 4:14)
 Upon reaching this section of the passage for discussion, the Bible study leader commented something that struck me hard. And it sobered me from my anger over the previous post. This was he commented.

"When you see that God is bigger than your problems, you are comforted."
Immediately my brain went "Wow.. Okay God, I get it.. I'm sorry... I should be better than this.. I'll power through the storm because you indeed are greater than my problem" It was a lesson learnt and I promise myself to be a little more accepting although personally I still think that the job distribution is a little unfair on my part.

But hey, I guess if it doesn't break you, it MAKES you... and I have much to be thankful for that. Hence my title.

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to all who have  experienced God knocking ever so gently on the door to remind us of HOW GREAT HE IS...

Thursday, April 07, 2011

Tired..

Yesterday, I received a new duty roster.

The worst thing is that its a new duty for me. So I now have to add on MORE work to my ever growing pile of work. Its just plain RIDICULOUS. There are so many other teachers that CAN be used for that duty and are MUCH MUCH more free (have less duties to hold) than me (and even have less teaching periods).

How am I going to be a good teacher and influence the students if more and more jobs keep coming my way and I have end up spreading myself TOO THIN (well weight and size is a different matter all together)??!! I made a promise to give the best to my students when I first joined the teaching force.

BUT...

How am I suppose to fulfill that promise if every time there is something new to do I'm thrown the duty?? Its really not fair. I know I'm suppose to rise and be the better person and accept it gracefully and be the nice person here. But... Right now steaming ears and pounding heartbeats infest my body to the point that I need to release them before I burst inside.

Argh!!!

I'm SOOOOOO angry!!! (and I bet you all can tell that by the way I'm writing this post)

Ciao.

p.s.: If only solving this problem was as easy as just telling people to "get lost"!

Monday, March 21, 2011

Features: Poem

Hey y'all!

As you can read below, our church camp just ended and many were moved by the experience. Anyway, one of those impacted by it was a youth member and she wrote a poem from it. Although simple, the words moved me and I would like to share it here with you all (yes, I have asked for her permission =D )

Here it is: -

I Need You, O Lord

Release me, O Lord,
From the sins of this world,
Let me in your fortress,
May Your power upon me be hurled

Speak to me, O Lord,
I yearn for Your voice,
Your words are like water,
With them I live, I rejoice.

Touch me, O Lord,
With Your everlasting love,
To the end of my days,
It's You I want to serve.

Fill me, O Lord,
With Your wondrous Spirit,
Lead me and guide me,
Day by day, bit by bit.

Overpower me, O Lord,
With your endless grace,
Against the Evil one,
Help me win this race.

I need You, O Lord,
Bestow your favour,
Reign in my life,
Forever and ever.

(c) Pan Eu Fern 2011

Beautiful right?? :) I'm so impressed with what she's written here and she's still SO Young!! Euffie dear, you've got an amazing talent for writing poems. Don't ever loose the passion. Love ya!

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to all the poets and aspiring poets out there! Cheers!!

Monday, March 14, 2011

Fear God

My church just finished our Church camp on Sunday. It was an incredible experience. There were many who personally encountered God and others who were challenged to rise up to the occasion. I personally was one of those who were challenged but at the same time received affirmation of the decisions that I'm making. As for the details, I would rather keep them to myself for now as I continue to seek God with my direction in life. But one thing that I want to share on is the theme of the camp which is "Fear God".

I was reading my daily devotion book and (yes, I'm still in the book of Job) came upon the passage that amazingly talks about the greatness of God and how he is to be revered! Many times we the human race forgets that God is Almighty and Powerful. That He is the Supreme God that created us and can destroy nations if need be (Think about earthquakes, tsunamis, tornadoes, hurricanes, etc.). Yes, don't get me wrong. God IS our friend, our Father, and loves us dearly but many forget that God is also the ALL Powerful God that reigns from the heavens above.

Here is the passage from Job that is so appropriately fitted into the theme of the camp.

"Listen! Listen to the roar of his voice,
to the rumbling that comes from his mouth.
He unleashes his lightning beneath the whole heaven
and sends it to the ends of the earth.
After that comes the sound of his roar;
he thunders with his majestic voice.
When his voice resounds,
he holds nothing back.
God's voice thunders in marvelous ways;
he does great things beyond out understanding.
He says to the snow, 'Fall on the earth,'
and to the rain shower, 'Be a mighty downpour.'
So that all men he has made may know his work,
he stops every man from his labor.
The animal take cover;
they remain in their dens.
The tempest comes out from its chamber,
the cold from the driving winds.
The breath of God produces ice,
and the broad waters become frozen.
He loads the clouds with moisture;
he scatters his lightning through them.
At his direction they swirl around
over the face of the whole wrath
to do whatever he commands them.
He brings the clouds to punish men,
or to water his earth and show his love.

Great indeed is the Lord. Amen.

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to all who attended the church camp with me.. Cheers!!

Monday, March 07, 2011

Broadway: Run Away with me

Sometimes I run across random videos or songs that I really like and here is one of them. The song is titled; "Run Away with me"  and is sung by Aaron Tveit. Enjoy!!



This guy singing actually guest starred in Ugly Betty season 4. Never thought then that he could sing so well. And also, after reading his biodata, he actually auditioned for the part of Finn on Glee.. Not bad... :)

Alright.. enough from me for now,

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to random video's on Youtube... you make me happy..Weee!!!

Sunday, March 06, 2011

The most typical face on the planet

I thought this to be quite interesting :).. Have a great read y'all!

From National Geographic:

In a world of 7 billion people
who is the most typical?
the world's most typical person
is right handed
makes less than $12,000 a year
has a cell phone
but not a bank account (less than 25% of us do)
so what does he look like?
The world's most typical person is male
males outnumber females (but just barely)
the median age of the world's population is 28
the largest ethnic group is han chinese
based on these traits
the
most
typical
person
is
a 28 year old han chinese man
there are over 9,000,000 of them
researches averaged 190,000 of their photos
to create a composite image

Ah... but he won't be typical for long!
by 2030, that person will come from India!!

Haha!! Quite interesting eh! there is actually more to the video feed on the website which I've linked to the title. If you have time, have a go at it.

That's all for now!

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to us and out individualities! Cheers!

Wednesday, March 02, 2011

My Redeemer Lives

Am doing a devotion series that currently covers the book of Job and was struck by this passage:

"Oh, that my words were recorded,
that they were written on a scroll,
that they were inscribed with an iron tool on lead,
or engraved in rock forever!
I know that my Redeemer lives,
and that in the end he will stand upon the earth.
And after my skin has been destroyed,
yet in my flesh I will see God;
I myself will see him
with my own eyes - I, and not another.
How my heart yearns within me!"

Job 19 : 23 - 27

How amazing to read the poetic scriptures as said aloud by Job! That thousands of years before the coming of Jesus as the Messiah, Job already foresaw it and declared of the Redeemer that lives, who is also our witness and advocate in heaven, and who is our intercessor where "on behalf of a man he pleads with God as a man pleads for his friend.(Job 16 : 21)" Amazing.....

Reading this passage reminded me of a song by Eugene Greco (made famous by Marty Nystrom):

My Redeemer lives,
and I will see his glory
as he works all things together for my good -
whatever things occur, of this I can be sure:
I know my Redeemer lives.

Even though I walk through the valley,
I will fear no evil,
he is with me;
and on the battlefield, although the pain is real,
my struggles soon will fade
as his glory is revealed.

Eugene Greco
(C) 1995 His Banner Publishing


Here's a video of the song (not original). Its not the best version of it but its the only one I could find in Youtube.


And while we're on the topic of My Redeemer Lives, here's another song with the same title sung by Nicole C. Mullen. The song is "attached" to an inspirational video of the famous father son team called Team Hoyt. Very inspiring indeed...

That's all from me for now.

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to those who are reading the book of Job (and have read it before...) Cheers!

Tuesday, March 01, 2011

To my future daughter...

Photo sourced from here


I joined an abstinence course a few years back and one of the activities that they made us do is to write a letter to our unborn child.

So I decided to write to my future daughter :) I came across the letter that I wrote tucked in my desk drawer while cleaning it and wanted to share it with you all.. So here it is:

My dear daughter, 

      I am now at a time in life where I'm being challenged to hold on to the truth. The truth of my values and beliefs as a woman. My dear girl, the truth of the matter is that you are more precious than you can ever imagine. The fact that you exist shows how important you are. 
       As you now begin to embark on a journey of discovering who you are, let me tell you that when it comes to the matters of love, waiting for the right person is the best. Just as your grandmother waited for your grandfather and I, now waiting,  for your father, I pray that you too will wait patiently for God to provide you your love. 
      Be wise too when in a relationship. Save yourself for your marriage. The first time should be the most special, where you give your virginity to only one person. Your husband. Refuse all offers from men who do not respect you as a woman. Do not compromise your dignity but instead be proud of it. 
      Always know that I LOVE YOU. DEARLY. DEEPLY. WHOLLY.

Love,
Your mother.


That's all for now.

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to my future child, I love you. And to my future husband, I'll be waiting ;)

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Of little things in life..

:)

That emoticon pretty much sums up my day.

Today, I was witness to the power of friendship and love. A big statement for sure.. and bound to pound on the curiosity of the reader I bet *wink*

But the act to that claim was something simply.. ORDINARY.. yet to see it happen is RARE..

I was on the way to prepare for class today (Biology Lab to be exact) when I saw these group of students from 4S3 at the other end of the lab building. They were a group of girls waiting at the ground floor end of the stairs. The girls were surrounding their wheelchair bound friend and were waiting for the boys in their class to arrive.

The girl in the wheelchair was all smiles knowing that she had friends around her. She chit-chatted with them and I notice that the friends were carrying the girl's books for her.

Finally the boys arrived (more like an army of boys.. hehe) and the girls went on ahead to the lab while now the group of boys surrounded her at all sides. AND as if it was so effortless, they carried her up the stairs (while she was still in the wheelchair!!) working together as a team. The boys who weren't carrying her directly formed a "cushion barrier" behind as support and in about one minute, they finished the task of carrying her to the lab.

Not once during that whole time did I see any one of them complain or show sour/long faces. My heart was deeply touched and at that moment I was so proud to be their teacher.

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It so amazing how the good Lord shows me little gestures in life and remind me of the hope there is in a friendship.

Who says little things in life don't count?? :')

"Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good. His love endures forever." ~Psalm 136:1~

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to those who have been witnesses of little miracles in life..

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Life's Short...

Last year, my school was shaken with the demise of 2 of our students. One in Form 5 and one in Form 4. As to how they passed on, I choose not to dwell and respect their families.

Why bring up the past when clearly its time to move on in this new year?

Today, on the birthday of my late father, my school is once again rocked with the news of one of my student in the I.C.U... A very sudden event that leaves students stunned to silence while others heartbroken. All this is evident on her facebook page. On Friday, the girl was fine and still her jovial self. She even met with  the principal to ask for a change in class. But over the weekend she contracted an infection in the brain and went into high fever. Her family brought her immediately to the hospital and went in for brain surgery. So far there is slight hope, as news of her although still unconscious, is responding slightly. The next few days are really critical as to whether she makes a full recovery or remains brain damaged.

Hope is always there because God is the God of miracles. (Lord, please remember the prayers of all those who are praying for her.)

Lena, here's to you. I pray that the Lord Almighty will heal you and you'll get well and live a long life ahead of you. One that is bright and filled with joy!!

Ciao.

Saturday, January 01, 2011

Nothing other than best

I once watched an advertisement regarding a fashion reality show and the one line that got me was:-

"The biggest enemy of "BEST" is "GOOD"."

How true. The biggest enemy of 'best' is not 'worst' but 'good'... Just mediocre.. just enough to get by..

So the question now is; "Why settle for good when you can be the best??" When reflecting on this sentence in my life, many thoughts come through my head. Am I at my fullest potential now? Is this what I want to do for the rest of my life? 32 more years to retirement.. is this what I want to settle for??

Going through THE induction course a few weeks back really made me think properly. Do I see myself staying in school teaching Biology for the rest of my career?? Don't get me wrong. I LOVE teaching.. Let me stress it again. L.O.V.E. Teaching


Its just that for those of you who have known me my whole life, my passion is in music.. In the arts.. I get by in science subjects achieving pleasing results when I need to. Basically just being 'good' in it. But when anything music comes up or even in any form of art (theater, musical, poetry, painting, sculpting, dancing, etc.) I believe the right expression to use is "shine".


Yes. I shine. I feel my eyes light up when I scan through music sheets. When I attend the Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra (MPO) I close my eyes and imagine myself dancing along with the notes of the music. I hear the rise and fall of the piece, the pain and joy of the composer, the anger and peace of the music. And when I'm in the arts, I'm at my BEST. Its my passion.


So where does this leave me?


Do I;


- stay on for 32 years teaching Biology. Getting by with being GOOD and slightly above average in life?
OR
- chase my dream, take the plunge, and be the BEST I can ever be, reaching my fullest potential?


Yes, the choice is mine. BUT, do I have the guts to go beyond settling with what I have? Do I go for nothing other than BEST??

Lord, I need your wisdom now more than ever.

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to those who are at their fullest potential. Keep the fire burning!

p.p.s: Even if we do settle for good, does not mean we only give good. The best should always be given in all situations. Cheers!
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