Head : Heart

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HEAD

HEART

Oh dear Heart, wounded at Thou?

Yes, I am

But why, dear Heart? Why?

Because today I'm reminded of my loneliness

Loneliness? But you're not alone! So many friends around you!

True.

There are many around me.

But how many truly knows me as my true self?

How many?

How many would call me theirs?
How many actually knows what I long for?
They see Body and think I'm fine.
They see Face or Face's smile, and they think I'm happy all the time.

When in fact, I long for companionship.

I long for another heart to call me his own.

One day soon, dear Heart. One day soon.

When is that dear Head?

When can that be?

Life-long wait so far and where has that gotten me?

Less and less choices. Less and less opportunities.

What if LOVE passed by and I didn't notice it?
What IF?!

But God loves you and He won't forsake you.

I do know that.

And I have you, Head, to remind me of God's Love.
Constantly.

I do feel His love as well.
Truly I do.

And I know I should be satisfied with His Love.

Yet, there is this deep desire within me.

And day by day; year by year goes by.

Desire stays but hope gets less.

It diminishes.

Hope-less.

Oh dear heart. Don't go there. Don't beat yourself too hard.

How can I not head?

How can I not beat myself down?

Never have I been deemed beautiful by another man.

Even though mentioned that I am beautiful, somehow it is always only enough to be a sister.

When will that special someone say that to me?

Why is it that it can never go beyond?

If truly I am beautiful, why don't I feel it?!
If truly I am beautiful, why don't I see it?!
What is the point of "beauty" if loneliness still creeps in?!!
[HEART breaks down and cry]

[HEAD stays silent]


*sigh*

I don't know Heart.

*sigh*

I don't know too, head.

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Just one of those lonely days.

Time to get a grip of myself again.

Tomorrow will be a new day, Sarah.

Hope can, and WILL be restored.

Ciao.

Phenomenal Woman

"The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen." - Elisabeth Kübler-Ross - 

As a continuous effort to learn to love myself more , I'm typing this post up to remind myself that I AM A PHENOMENAL WOMAN. :)

The poem below by Maya Angelou is perfect in describing the true beauty of women and how as a whole package, each and every one of us are phenomenal. I chose to type the whole poem out instead of copy & pasting because I wanted to make this post worth it.

So here's to being a more confident, courageous and captivating woman!

As I grow up, I realise reflecting on life and learning from it is an important posture to emulate. It is often during reflection that God speaks the loudest to me as well.

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PHENOMENAL WOMAN

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.

I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size

But when I start to tell them,

They think I'm telling lies.

I say,

It's in the reach of my arms,

The span of my hips,

The stride of my step,

The curl of my lips.

I'm a woman

Phenomenally.

Phenomenal woman,

That's me.

I walk into a room

Just as cool as you please,

And to a man,

The fellows stand or

Fall down on their knees.

Then they swarm around me,

A hive of honey bees.

I say,

It's the fire in my eyes,

And the flash of my teeth,

The swing in my waist,

And the joy in my feet.

I'm a woman

Phenomenally.

Phenomenal woman,

That's me.

Men themselves have wondered

What they see in me.

They try so much

But they can't touch

My inner mystery.

When I try to show them

They say they still can't see.

I say,

It's in the arch of my back,

The sun of my smile,

The ride of my breasts,

The grace of my style.

I'm a woman

Phenomenally.

Phenomenal woman,

That's me.

Now you understand

Just why my head's not bowed.

I don't shout or jump about

Or have to talk real loud.

When you see me passing

It ought to make you proud.

I say,

It's in the click of my heels,

The bend of my hair,

the palm of my hand,

The need of my care,

'Cause I'm a woman

Phenomenally.

Phenomenal woman,

That's me.

- Maya Angelou -

Ciao.

p.s.: To all the women out there, cheers. We're all phenomenal in our own way. :)

Twitter Noob

Well, just a light post..

I gave twitter a try before and never hooked on.. Today I gave it a try again and I seem to be getting it a little.. Even got a reply from one of my friends.. Yay!

Yes people.. I'm a twitter noob.. Took me 2 years to figure something out and show progress.. *sigh*

HAHAHA...

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to entertaining moments in life.. Cheers!

Features: Poem

Hey y'all!

As you can read below, our church camp just ended and many were moved by the experience. Anyway, one of those impacted by it was a youth member and she wrote a poem from it. Although simple, the words moved me and I would like to share it here with you all (yes, I have asked for her permission =D )

Here it is: -

I Need You, O Lord

Release me, O Lord,

From the sins of this world,

Let me in your fortress,

May Your power upon me be hurled

Speak to me, O Lord,

I yearn for Your voice,

Your words are like water,

With them I live, I rejoice.

Touch me, O Lord,

With Your everlasting love,

To the end of my days,

It's You I want to serve.

Fill me, O Lord,

With Your wondrous Spirit,

Lead me and guide me,

Day by day, bit by bit.

Overpower me, O Lord,

With your endless grace,

Against the Evil one,

Help me win this race.

I need You, O Lord,

Bestow your favour,

Reign in my life,

Forever and ever.

(c) Pan Eu Fern 2011

Beautiful right?? :) I'm so impressed with what she's written here and she's still SO Young!! Euffie dear, you've got an amazing talent for writing poems. Don't ever loose the passion. Love ya!

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to all the poets and aspiring poets out there! Cheers!!

Broadway: Run Away with me

Sometimes I run across random videos or songs that I really like and here is one of them. The song is titled; "Run Away with me"  and is sung by Aaron Tveit. Enjoy!!



This guy singing actually guest starred in Ugly Betty season 4. Never thought then that he could sing so well. And also, after reading his biodata, he actually auditioned for the part of Finn on Glee.. Not bad... :)

Alright.. enough from me for now,

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to random video's on Youtube... you make me happy..Weee!!!

The most typical face on the planet

I thought this to be quite interesting :).. Have a great read y'all!

From National Geographic:

In a world of 7 billion people

who is the most typical?

the world's most typical person

is right handed

makes less than $12,000 a year

has a cell phone

but not a bank account (less than 25% of us do)

so what does he look like?

The world's most typical person is male

males outnumber females (but just barely)

the median age of the world's population is 28

the largest ethnic group is han chinese

based on these traits

the

most

typical

person

is

a 28 year old han chinese man

there are over 9,000,000 of them

researches averaged 190,000 of their photos

to create a composite image

Ah... but he won't be typical for long!

by 2030, that person will come from India!!

Haha!! Quite interesting eh! there is actually more to the video feed on the website which I've linked to the title. If you have time, have a go at it.

That's all for now!

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to us and out individualities! Cheers!

For Chabo dearest...

For dearest friend who turns 27.. (that's one cool number yo....)

Today someone climbs a year,

And sets her life in gear,

My dearest dearest friend, do not fear,

For here I'm going to make it clear:

Your friendship to me is just so priceless,

My love for you is just endless,

Even if your looks and (*ahem*) body make me "jealous",

Christine dear, you are still so precious.

What I'm really trying to say is,

A very blessed birthday sis,

Have fun today, I beg you please

And now, from me to you, a birthday kiss!

MUAHKS!!

Love ya babes!! Happy birthday!!

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to all turning 27 or have turned 27.. I'll be catching up soon!! ;) Cheers

10.10.10

I knew many people would make a big deal about this date because it was the "triple 10". Many we talking about getting married on this auspicious day and random posts on facebook showed that people really do take note of this day.

 I personally didn't think much about it and didn't really want to associate with it at all. Then the news came. My long time friend from UNIMAS days was proposed to by her boyfriend!! So I guess this day became special to me too!! :)

Anyway, a video of the whole proposal was uploaded to YouTube and when I watched it, it brought me a little tears and suddenly had the urge to write her something. And so I did; here it is: -

For Grace:

Oh! What a joyous day it is,
To see my friend Grace in bliss
One thing for sure I know is this
Dear Grace you've got your wish

At the dining table her hand lay
10.10.10 seemed like a normal day
Till the restaurant pressed the button "PLAY"
Her eyes blossomed like it was the month of May

The pictures popped up one by one
It reminded her of all the fun
Then came these group of young guns
With bright smiles that outshine the sun

Balloons and cheers filled the air
The MAN walked in without a fear
For he knew that this WOMAN he dearly cared
Would forever now be his pair

With a bouquet of flowers he gave her a kiss
And took out a box and planted his knee
The face of the girl was full of glee
Then came out the words "Marry me, Please?"

The rest of the story is as they say
I won't have it any other way
For Grace and Ah Fai made this their day
On 10.10.10! Hip hip! Hooray!!


Congratulations Grace!!

♥ Sarah






I guess that's all from me for now. Congratulations again Grace :) So happy for you!!


Ciao.


p.s. Here's to all who have been engaged before or just did :) Cheers!!

Cute..

When life throws you lemon, you make lemonade.. :)

When I throw students Biology. They give me a birthday wish... ;)

I have this student..

He's one of the creative few in the class and can throw really random comments that will catch you off guard. Yesterday was my birthday. And recently I taught them about Digestive system and the organs that are involved in the process.. He basically used his KNOWLEDGE :)

Here's the wish:

"Happy Birthday Miss Sarah :) God has blessed you with 3 perfect pairs of salivary glands. Use it to proclaim His word"

HAHAHAHA... I mean, how cute can Biology get?!! Apparently, very very cute.. So funny yet appropriate at the same time.. Totally brightened up my day..

Who said getting older wasn't fun.. :)

Ciao.

p.s. Here's to all celebrating their Birthdays.. Have fun