Life's Short...

Last year, my school was shaken with the demise of 2 of our students. One in Form 5 and one in Form 4. As to how they passed on, I choose not to dwell and respect their families.

Why bring up the past when clearly its time to move on in this new year?

Today, on the birthday of my late father, my school is once again rocked with the news of one of my student in the I.C.U... A very sudden event that leaves students stunned to silence while others heartbroken. All this is evident on her facebook page. On Friday, the girl was fine and still her jovial self. She even met with  the principal to ask for a change in class. But over the weekend she contracted an infection in the brain and went into high fever. Her family brought her immediately to the hospital and went in for brain surgery. So far there is slight hope, as news of her although still unconscious, is responding slightly. The next few days are really critical as to whether she makes a full recovery or remains brain damaged.

Hope is always there because God is the God of miracles. (Lord, please remember the prayers of all those who are praying for her.)

Lena, here's to you. I pray that the Lord Almighty will heal you and you'll get well and live a long life ahead of you. One that is bright and filled with joy!!

Ciao.

Nothing other than best

I once watched an advertisement regarding a fashion reality show and the one line that got me was:-

"The biggest enemy of "BEST" is "GOOD"."

How true. The biggest enemy of 'best' is not 'worst' but 'good'... Just mediocre.. just enough to get by..

So the question now is; "Why settle for good when you can be the best??" When reflecting on this sentence in my life, many thoughts come through my head. Am I at my fullest potential now? Is this what I want to do for the rest of my life? 32 more years to retirement.. is this what I want to settle for??

Going through THE induction course a few weeks back really made me think properly. Do I see myself staying in school teaching Biology for the rest of my career?? Don't get me wrong. I LOVE teaching.. Let me stress it again. L.O.V.E. Teaching


Its just that for those of you who have known me my whole life, my passion is in music.. In the arts.. I get by in science subjects achieving pleasing results when I need to. Basically just being 'good' in it. But when anything music comes up or even in any form of art (theater, musical, poetry, painting, sculpting, dancing, etc.) I believe the right expression to use is "shine".


Yes. I shine. I feel my eyes light up when I scan through music sheets. When I attend the Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra (MPO) I close my eyes and imagine myself dancing along with the notes of the music. I hear the rise and fall of the piece, the pain and joy of the composer, the anger and peace of the music. And when I'm in the arts, I'm at my BEST. Its my passion.


So where does this leave me?


Do I;


- stay on for 32 years teaching Biology. Getting by with being GOOD and slightly above average in life?

OR

- chase my dream, take the plunge, and be the BEST I can ever be, reaching my fullest potential?


Yes, the choice is mine. BUT, do I have the guts to go beyond settling with what I have? Do I go for nothing other than BEST??

Lord, I need your wisdom now more than ever.

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to those who are at their fullest potential. Keep the fire burning!

p.p.s: Even if we do settle for good, does not mean we only give good. The best should always be given in all situations. Cheers!

The Future...

In this one week, no less then 3 people have asked me (talk about coincidence!!) about furthering my studies in Masters Degree. I've personally been avoiding this question hoping that I do not have to study anymore... (I kinda feel lazy..)

But I believe its the right step for me if I were to continue on in my career and develop myself. Question now is..

WHERE??
WHEN??
WHAT??

Argh... Have been searching high and low for courses through the net... Some that spark interest. Others that just makes me want to think twice about what I'm doing...

At the crossroads here... Really do not know what and how..

Lord, give me wisdom.


Ciao.

p/s: Here's to those who are taking their Masters or are considering it

Princess (by Matthew Robinson)

This song found on Youtube is a treasure indeed :)

Ally, found a counterpart video named "Boyband" by the same writer and I had a field time laughing.. (If you want to see just search the name and the artist in Youtube.

But the song that I want to draw your attention to is the one entitled princess. Very fun to watch and animated as well. And the words.... PRICELESS..

Basically, this song is a summary of my childhood. Here it is:-


PRINCESS ~ by Matthew Robinson

Ever since I was the age of 5

I've had a quiet dream

That a man of worth on a great white stead

Would come and rescue me

See I wasn't under privileged

My family was always with me

But instead of watching Sesame Street

I had what some may call,

A small obsessive urge for Disney

Now please understand

A magic carpet and a lamp

Are accessories to treasure indeed

So if you happen to find

Aladdin's search of divine

Pass his number on to me

I think he lost mine

If I met a beast

A hairy laud to say the least

Whose inner beauty made up for the smell

Would it be too much for me

To get his dancing rockery

And have him turn out HOT as well

Its only fitting

Would it be so unconventional

To want life to be two dimensional

Its not erotic, its melodic, it’s a state of mind.

If I met a king who was a lion who could sing

I might try to wet his appetite

And with a crown on his head

And his lioness in bed

He'd feel the love tonight

Once we were married

I could be a little mermaid in the sea

And a have a daddy with a trident in hand

And I could get the man,

Sell my soul and wreck the land

He still would understand

Its only justice

Life would be so less deflated

If it were a little more animated

I'll get my happy, get my sappy

Any day of the week

Disney princess always gets the pretty songs to sing

And all I'm asking for is the kind of love that's worth key changing

One girl left a slipper on a step

And a prince came running effortlessly

But I could set glue, and leave a business card or two

He still would not find me

It isn't funny!

But I can wait!

Even princess can relate

I'm sure he's running to me desperately

Till he arrives, I'll get my Disney from the store

Unwrap a box and spread them on the floor

And pray to Walt that if won't be long before

A brand new Hercules, hits the screen!!

Now, the lyrics posted my not be very accurate as it is based on my listening. Anyway, after listening to this song over and over again, it totally gave me the "Disney" urge and I actually watched Sleeping Beauty (yes the cartoon) on Youtube... The whole thing!! hehehe..

Okay.. Here's the video for those of you curious enough to watch.

P.s.: Here's to all our fun filled childhood. Never forget it.. Cheers!!

Allygator (via Phoebe Simon)

Recently, one of my youth members took a big step in life where she migrated with her mum to Down Under. It was a whirlwind of farewells (practically almost everyday) left and right, front and back, up and down (okay okay... you get the idea)..

Anyway, Ally, I'll miss you sooooooo much and I know many friends that you've made along the years will miss you too.

Another one of my youth members wrote a poem for her and I thought it very appropriate to share it here with you all (yes, I have asked for permission). So here it is:-

Later, Allygator  (by Phoebe Simon)

It was just in time,

that a year ago, I came to meet sunshine.

She was the brightest thing ever,

A girl who moves mountains with her prayers.

There's a skill she perfected,

She puts smiles on everyone she affected.

There's something about that bubbly nature of hers,

It's a known fact, Ally's highly infectious!

I'm sure you know by now,

That I havent had enough of you,

Your bright light and oh wow,

Your funny language too.

But now off you go,

To the land down under,

Oh love, dont you know?

It's the right place for my allygator.

But please, dont you dare,

Look back and start to tear,

I know it's a different jungle out there,

Just remember, He'll never leave you astray.

Now look out, world,

So amazed you'll be,

To see what you're about to see,

Because here's a girl with a ton of strength,

Our sweetest little Ally Eng.

So here's to you dearest Ally. Make the best of your stay there in Australia. I'm sure I speak on behalf of all that we'll be looking forward to your coming back HOME...

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to all who are missing loved ones abroad. Cheers.

For Chabo dearest...

For dearest friend who turns 27.. (that's one cool number yo....)

Today someone climbs a year,

And sets her life in gear,

My dearest dearest friend, do not fear,

For here I'm going to make it clear:

Your friendship to me is just so priceless,

My love for you is just endless,

Even if your looks and (*ahem*) body make me "jealous",

Christine dear, you are still so precious.

What I'm really trying to say is,

A very blessed birthday sis,

Have fun today, I beg you please

And now, from me to you, a birthday kiss!

MUAHKS!!

Love ya babes!! Happy birthday!!

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to all turning 27 or have turned 27.. I'll be catching up soon!! ;) Cheers

Countdown begins...

The last of exams in school is over and I've also finished my marking as of today!!! YAY!!! :)

Now its just the countdown to the holidays...  Woot!!! 9 more days!!

Hmm... if only my induction letter would just come.. Then all will be perfect..

Faster liaw....

Ciao.

p.s.: Here's to all other soon-to-be induction goers... Cheers!!

Movies Movies Movies...

Alright!! I have 3 on my list of must see movies!!

No.1

LIFE AS WE KNOW IT




No.2

YOU AGAIN



No.3

TAKERS




Anyone up for it?? Let me know!!

Ciao.

p.s: Here's to all the movie-goers... ENJOY!! :)

Impromptu fun!

Was at choir, saw my mum talking to An.Karen Rose..

They shared a moment.. and laughed.. and my heart was moved.. I immediately went over and asked them to join us for dinner.. She said yes.. :)

Dinner at venue was awesome!! (Saw other church members there too!!) A visit to Starbucks sealed the deal! (Caleb = Dark Mocha)

"tapau-ed" the coffee, went back home and had Wii session... INSANE!! I nearly beat "Special Child" in baseball!! Hahaha... but it was an awesome night.. Totally unplanned and spontaneous..

Sometimes life needs a little jolt. Thank you God...


ciao.

p.s. Here's to the Roses.. You guys are awesome...

Enough...

I'm just tired... Off the chart tired...

I want to give up.. Maybe I should just give up... Giving up sounds just so tempting..

I've had enough..

God, give me strength...